NKJV Proverbs 3:5
Trust in The Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
My desire to trust God is an everyday decision. It’s not that I decided to trust God and then never had to struggle with that ever again. It’s a daily choice for me. Everyone has days when their doubts and lack of trust in God rise up and drown them. I sometimes (on very hard days) repeat out loud over and over again “I trust God, I trust God, I trust God.” It helps. It places the burden that life can be on Gods’ shoulders, and reminds me that he will show me the way. He is in charge of my life. God will move me into the position he wants me in. I just have to seek his direction and ask him how to get through, what I am going through.
I am so glad that the prophets and the apostles in the Bible asked questions. They looked around and saw despair, violence, evil, lawlessness. They saw the ungodly prosper and the righteous attacked and asked God why? Look at the prophet Habakkuk. In Habakkuk 1:2, he asked: “O Lord, how long shall I cry, and You will not hear?” Have you ever felt that way? I certainly have.
Look at Moses, when God called him to go back to Egypt he had huge doubts about his abilities. “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh, and that I should bring the children of Israel out of Egypt?” He complained about his speech, implying that he was not a good speaker. “O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither before nor since You have spoken to Your servant, but I am slow of speech and slow on tongue”. See the apostle Thomas doubting that Jesus was resurrected. He was asking for proof of his wounds. “Unless I see in his hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.” I am so thankful he did. I am glad he was a doubting Thomas so that we may know the truth.
I am so glad they had doubts and asked questions. They were prophets, and I am not. They were judges, and I am not. They were apostles, and I am not. I am so glad it’s okay to ask questions because I am such a curious person. I am forever asking WHY? I have to admit that my husband gets a little tired of my questions sometimes, but I believe God does not. After all, he created me like this.
I seem always to want to know the when, where, how and why of something. You can thank all the journalism classes I had in college for that! When my brain starts to hurt, I remind myself yet again. I TRUST GOD, I TRUST, GOD, I TRUST GOD! I will never understand everything. I will never have all my questions answered. Well, not until I get to heaven anyway, and who knows I might not even care once I arrive in paradise. After all, I will be in heaven, YA HOO! I doubt the first thing I will want to do is ask a lot of questions. My first and foremost desire when I arrive is to sit in Gods lap and have him permanently wipe away all my tears.
I CANNOT lean on my own understanding or I would never get out of bed. If your focus is only on yourself and trying to understand life all by yourself, you will fall. Lean not on yourself, lean on God; he is truly big enough to lean on. He is big enough and patient enough to handle all your questions. Remember Habakkuk and all the questions he was asking, God replied to them in Habakkuk 1:5 “Look among the nations and watch – Be utterly astounded! For I will work a work in your days which you would not believe, though it were told you.”
- Is there something in your life that keeps you from trusting God? What is it?
- Now that you have identified the reason why you don’t trust God, talk it over with someone you trust. If you don’t have anyone go to a Bible Teaching Church and ask for a Pastor of the day.